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| My back was hurting a whole lot and so I took a second Vicodin.
I am currently higher than giraffe pussy.
That is all. - Mood:yes, more of this please.
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| We stayed home - my back was hurting too much and Damien had a headache sneak up on him. No worries, we're cool. | |
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| Tonight is my sister's anniversary party at a place in downtown next to Damien's office. I love her dearly, she's never once been judgmental or even critical of me, not once. Whenever I see her, it's always just a happy thing. I threw my back out yesterday and am in a great deal of pain, but I'm determined to be there - my last Vicodin willing.
I'm reasonably sure that my oldest brother and my father will be there as well, considering this is a family gathering. It will be the first time I've seen or heard from either of them since the big blow-up happened where my father said he was ashamed to be my father and my brother defended him - all over some stupid bullshit. It will also be the first time I've seen my other siblings who were the audience for the big blow-up on me, who saw and heard and said nothing. I'm not sure about you, but when I see an injustice happen and there are witnesses who say nothing, that speaks volumes about them and their character. By saying nothing, you say EVERYTHING. I will not be complacent.
Damien and I are going for my sister's benefit and to show love for her and her husband on their special day. I will take care to avoid people I no longer wish to engage or hold in reverence, and should they attempt conversation with me I'll be quick to give the first single word answer available and then I'm moving away from them. This night is not about me or them, and if they want to try and speak to me then they have options they can take upon themselves to contact me. No scenes, no lame attempts at saving face, I'm not having that. If you cannot do it on your own time because it means something to you, then it's an insult and I'm not going to accept that simply because it is too easy.
I'm done with making a banquet out of crumbs - I deserve better than that and I expect nothing less than what I deserve. I'm done with anyone trying to make me burn for something when it's not my bonfire to be thrown upon. I'm done with being treated unfairly by anyone who expects something of me, I don't owe them loyalty I'm not given. I'm done with anyone who wants a place in my life without earning it, because I'm tired of dispensing my love and energy on people who aren't truly invested in me.
Most of all, I have no time, patience, or use for anyone that refuses to look the love of my life in the eye when he's always by my side and not only appreciate what he's brought to my world, but show him the respect he's earned for having the testicular fortitude to do the work it took when they haven't.
It's a standard for a reason, you don't compromise your principles just because it would be a lot easier than digging in your heels. I'm just glad I have the constitution to draw the lines and say what's what to everyone equally. | |
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| RAT BASTARD FRIDAY Who's the bane of YOUR existence? Surely there's someone who pisses you off in such a huge way that it merits flogging, at least. 'Round here, we call that person a RAT BASTARD. Who is the person you most want to rip a new asshole for whatever reason? Go ahead - now's your chance to put them on blast. Start commenting, and have fun gettin' your hate on - and out. IP logging is off and anonymous commenters WERE welcome, but I've had to disable it since I've gotten six tons of bullshit spam comments lately. Sorry about that. Go on - vent your spleen... Also, check out/participate in the Friday Confessional and the subsequent Sunday Stoning, brought to you by the fantastic ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) city_of_dis. | |
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| From the Department of DUMBFUCKERY....When I am Emperor, Florida will be no more. All of you who live there, get ready to evac when I come to power as it will be the first order of business once the Cabinet of Biscuity Goodness is appointed. Those who are not completely fucking stupid will be relocated and spared euthanasia. And by 'euthanasia', I mean dipped in Gravy Train and thrown to starving dingoes. What remains of Florida shall be sawed off the mainland and renamed "Isle of Beautiful Mens". | |
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| 100,000 may have died in cycloneThe situation in cyclone-devastated Myanmar is becoming "more and more horrendous" and the death toll in the nation's delta region alone could top 100,000, said Shari Villarosa, the top U.S. diplomat in Myanmar. I don't even have words for how this makes me feel, I don't believe there are any. | |
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| Another Reason Not to Vote for McCainThe Democrats have been worried about unifying their party, so it’s odd that John McCain would pick this moment to give them another reason to band together. If elected, McCain said Tuesday, he would think of conservative Justices John Roberts and Samuel Alito “as the model for my own nominees” to the Supreme Court.
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| An Atheist Goes Undercover to Join the Flock of Mad Pastor John HageeIn this excerpt from his new book, Matt Taibbi shares his experiences at a Hagee's boot camp for new converts.
[More...] Was It Really What Jeremiah Wright Said, Or Was It Because He's Black?White preachers are given leeway in politics that Jeremiah Wright wasn't.
[More...] McCain's Preacher Pal Calls Catholic Church the 'Great Whore' -- Where's the Outrage?If the hypocrisy whipped up over Jeremiah Wright proves anything, it's that this nation's candid conversation on race has yet to begin.
[More...] Wright issue will haunt conservative media eliteNow that Sen. Barack Obama has denounced his former pastor, the Rev. Jeremiah Wright, many of his critics, especially those who call themselves conservative, are happy he has put the dashiki-wearing, American-criticizing former Marine in his place.
See, these same voices, many that are allegedly Christian, have reacted with glee by calling Wright a prophet of hate and a race baiter.
They hold themselves up to be so concerned about their fellow brother and sister, yet if you looked at their personal lives, I doubt you'd find many with African-American friends and associates (and I doubt their staffs are the most diverse in the world, but that's another story).
But be careful what you ask for.
[More...] Report: Post-War Suicides May Exceed Combat Deaths The number of suicides among veterans of wars in Iraq and Afghanistan may exceed the combat death toll because of inadequate mental health care, the U.S. government’s top psychiatric researcher said.
Community mental health centers, hobbled by financial limits, haven’t provided enough scientifically sound care, especially in rural areas, said Thomas Insel, director of the National Institute of Mental Health in Bethesda, Maryland. He briefed reporters today at the American Psychiatric Association’s annual meeting in Washington.
Insel echoed a Rand Corporation study published last month that found about 20 percent of returning U.S. soldiers have post- traumatic stress disorder or depression, and only half of them receive treatment.
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| Someone is selling what they claim, in horrid grammar, is the cross that Jesus Christ died on. Jesus even autographed it. On eBay, of course. I could not make this up, y'all: We have recently discovered the wooden cross that Jesus Christ died on. It was recovered and burried in a tomb in Jerusalem, Israel. This wooden cross is the only proof of Jesus Christ dieing for our sins. Within this cross has Jesus Christ bloodline engraved and soaked in the wood. Since the day we bought this from Israelites I been having dreams of Jesus Christ Returning to earth and has been blessing me with fortune and fame. Im only selling this to once and for all prove Jesus Christ is real and did sacrifice himself for our sins. God Bless
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| Introducing Eric Avery. Eric is/was the original bassist and founding member of the legendary Jane's Addiction, one of my favorite bands. Their 2nd album and first major label offering, the amazing-beyond-compare "Nothing's Shocking" is on my list of top 100 best albums ever. I saw Jane's Addiction live two different times, the first time when few in the Atlanta knew who they were, opening for Love And Rockets and later headlining the first Lollapalooza tour. THAT was an amazing show on it's own, made even better by the opening bands (Butthole Surfers, Rollins Band, Ice T & Body Count, Nine Inch Nails, Living Colour, & Siouxsie & The Banshees). His debut solo offering is called " Help Wanted". The first release is "All Remote & No Control", which is amazing. Watch the video at right and see for yourself. Shirley Manson (Garbage, Angelfish) guest vocals on the track "Maybe". This album will end up on my revised list of top favorites. I've listened to it almost every day since I got it earlier this week, and it's mesmerizingly good. Not just his orchestration and the depth of the lyrics, but the production on this album is incredibly well crafted to boot. Eric Avery has only gotten better with age, that's for sure. This solo debut is one of the best albums of any I've heard in the past 5 years, easily. Definitely check him out. | |
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